Where Is God When It Hurts?

"I want to believe..

but all I pray is wrong...

all I claim is gone..." 

- Jars of Clay

Psalm 56

New King James Version (NKJV)

To the Chief Musician. Set to “The Silent Dove in Distant Lands.”^[a] A Michtam of David when the Philistines captured him in Gath.

 ¹ Be merciful to me, O God, for man would swallow me up;

         Fighting all day he oppresses me.

 ² My enemies would hound me all day,

         For there are many who fight against me, O Most High. 

         

 ³ Whenever I am afraid,

         I will trust in You.

 ⁴ In God (I will praise His word),

         In God I have put my trust; 

         I will not fear. 

         What can flesh do to me? 

         

 ⁵ All day they twist my words;

         All their thoughts are against me for evil.

 ⁶ They gather together,

         They hide, they mark my steps, 

         When they lie in wait for my life.

 ⁷ Shall they escape by iniquity?

         In anger cast down the peoples, O God! 

         

 ⁸ You number my wanderings;

         Put my tears into Your bottle; 

         Are they not in Your book?

 ⁹ When I cry out to You,

         Then my enemies will turn back; 

         This I know, because God is for me.

 ¹⁰ In God (I will praise His word),

         In the LORD (I will praise His word),

 ¹¹ In God I have put my trust;

         I will not be afraid. 

         What can man do to me? 

         

 ¹² Vows made to You are binding upon me, O God;

         I will render praises to You,

 ¹³ For You have delivered my soul from death.

         Have You not kept my feet from falling, 

         That I may walk before God 

         In the light of the living?